such stupid mood

I actually dont really understand myself! I cant understand what i am doing lately.What i want and wha i will get! Someone may look good with u but actually that person will be the one that betrayed you.Such wrong concept have been kept in my mind for a long time! My mood is changing like the weather ! Sometime gud sometimes bad! But i think i have done the best to give myself a proove that i can make it!Even though this action will bring some negatif effect to me i still dare to do it! I dont care what other people will think of me but i really want to do it!Doin some action that u always dream about is the most exciting! I dunno where i get these power! Maybe is from him...........! He give me a lot of support! Thanks to u a lot although u stay far from me but u still willing to spend ur time with me! u are the second important man to me because papa is the most important man to me! u still play an important role in my life! Having is the great thing in my life so continue to support me lor!